Letting it go

I know that half of the stuff I write on here is about Utah. [Ok, more than half.] I'm sure that's getting annoying to all of you, especially when I talk about my plans for moving that I make, and then I don't move, so I make new plans to move, and they don't happen, so I make plans again, you see where this is going.

I've decided I need to stop spending so much time thinking about Utah. Trying to move back, and trying to get out of Buffalo again. Yeah I want to move back, but I can't right now. I need to just let it go and come to terms with it. Everything will work out in due time. I just need to be patient, stop asking when, and start thinking about why I'm still here, what is it that I haven't learned yet, or something I need to be here to experience that hasn't happened yet.

I've wasted so much time, lost so many great opportunities since I've been in New York, cause I've been obsessed with getting back to Utah. Well that's all going to change. I started going out and making friends with people, I started going to Rochester every Sunday for church so as to get to know other people my age. I stopped looking for jobs in Utah, and places out there to live. I need to start spending more time working on myself, my family, and church. Really focusing on what I need to get done. Like getting my GED for example. Maybe taking a couple classes at ECC in September? Who knows, but what I do know, is that I'm here now, and I need to focus on being here.

"I learned that patience was far more than simply waiting for something to happen—patience required actively working toward worthwhile goals and not getting discouraged when results didn’t appear instantly or without effort.
 There is an important concept here: patience is not passive resignation, nor is it failing to act because of our fears. Patience means active waiting and enduring. It means staying with something and doing all that we can—working, hoping, and exercising faith; bearing hardship with fortitude, even when the desires of our hearts are delayed. Patience is not simply enduring; it is enduring well!" --President Dieter F. Uchtdorf