Letting it go

I know that half of the stuff I write on here is about Utah. [Ok, more than half.] I'm sure that's getting annoying to all of you, especially when I talk about my plans for moving that I make, and then I don't move, so I make new plans to move, and they don't happen, so I make plans again, you see where this is going.

I've decided I need to stop spending so much time thinking about Utah. Trying to move back, and trying to get out of Buffalo again. Yeah I want to move back, but I can't right now. I need to just let it go and come to terms with it. Everything will work out in due time. I just need to be patient, stop asking when, and start thinking about why I'm still here, what is it that I haven't learned yet, or something I need to be here to experience that hasn't happened yet.

I've wasted so much time, lost so many great opportunities since I've been in New York, cause I've been obsessed with getting back to Utah. Well that's all going to change. I started going out and making friends with people, I started going to Rochester every Sunday for church so as to get to know other people my age. I stopped looking for jobs in Utah, and places out there to live. I need to start spending more time working on myself, my family, and church. Really focusing on what I need to get done. Like getting my GED for example. Maybe taking a couple classes at ECC in September? Who knows, but what I do know, is that I'm here now, and I need to focus on being here.

"I learned that patience was far more than simply waiting for something to happen—patience required actively working toward worthwhile goals and not getting discouraged when results didn’t appear instantly or without effort.
 There is an important concept here: patience is not passive resignation, nor is it failing to act because of our fears. Patience means active waiting and enduring. It means staying with something and doing all that we can—working, hoping, and exercising faith; bearing hardship with fortitude, even when the desires of our hearts are delayed. Patience is not simply enduring; it is enduring well!" --President Dieter F. Uchtdorf

Spring Time

I love the Spring! It's perfect. The weather changes, plants start to grow, and all of the little critters start to come out to play. Oh I love the spring time! I took a couple pictures while out on a walk, and also took some of the flowers in the front of my church building, to show how pretty spring in Buffalo can be. Enjoy! :]

Weekend with the Family

My Grandpa and Uncle from my dad's side of the family came into town for my cousins baby blessing at church. It was really great to see them both and to get to spend some much needed quality time with the family. Bowling, go karting, frisbee, flying kites, playing at the park, drawing with chalk, and parking lot dancing. We had a whole lot of fun! More pictures soon to follow, I just haven't uploaded them all yet.

Quaker Steak & Lube -- Wing Buffet!

So me and some of my guy friends from church went to Quaker Steak & Lube for their all you can eat wing buffet they have every tuesday. They have around 20 different flavors of wings, all of which were way good. They even have one called the atomic, that you have to sign a waiver of liability to even eat because its so flippin hot. I did not eat the atomic, I didn't want to be hospitalized! We played the "no wipe game" which I invented. Basically you aren't allowed to lick your lips or wipe off your face until everyone has finished eating. Let's just say half my meal ended up on my face! Haha! :]

My Love of Sundays

Megan, Maria, and I have decided to start attending the YSA ward up in Rochester for church on Sundays. It's about an hour and ten minute drive, but so worth it. It's nice being able to go to church, and everyone is in your age range, and is in the same stage of life. It's much different from a family ward. I really love it. This week, Steve asked if she could come with us. I was overjoyed! She said she really liked it, and even asked questions while we were there. I decided that even if she never comes again, or she decides it isn't for her, it's ok, because she had a good experience and tried something different. I'm so proud of her. I really do love Steve as a sister.

Right before we left to head back to Buffalo, I ran outside to the front of the building and snapped a few pictures of the tulips, and daffodils growing in front of the church. I may have gotten a photo gig because of it! I love taking pictures. [obviously!] I also got to see some of my new friends and visited with them for a little bit. I really like Kathleen and Shawn, they are way fun.

After church we as a group [Maria, Megan, Steve, and I] decided to go to Glenn Falls Park. It was beautiful! The trees are blooming, flowers are growing, the sun was shining, and you can never go wrong with a waterfall! We didn't stay too long, but feeling my bare feet in the cool grass after so many months, was just what I needed. I'm so grateful for little moments like that!

We ended up dropping Maria off at home and then going to Megan's dorm to eat dinner and to play The Settlers of Catan. I'm not sure why, but I was really clumsy all that afternoon. I managed to spill just about everything I ate and drank all over my church dress, on my shoes, and even got some in my hair. I don't know what was happening. I ended up feeling pretty sick after dinner too, so playing settlers wasn't as enjoyable as normal. I went to bed earlier than I have in a few months. I've been so tired lately. I really haven't been getting enough sleep.

All in all though, it was a day spent with people I love, and that for me, that is plenty grand.

Dance Party

Friday night I held a dance party at Megan's dorm. It was a blast! There was a pretty good turn out, and just about everyone danced. We even got a couple rounds of dancing charades in which are always hilarious. I was planning on going with Danny and some of his friends to another party after I took Bryan home, but my friends who were still wanting to hang out didn't want to go. I was pretty disappointed, but I wasn't about to ditch them. That's not me. We had a lot of fun though. The night ended with a round of settlers, [which I didn't play] and then everyone went their separate ways. It was a great way to get everyone pumped for Tyler's dance party that's coming up on the 30th. That should be pretty killer.

Settlers of Catan

So there is this strategy game similar to risk called The Settlers of Catan. I love it as it makes me think and I'm good at it, but it turns out I'm a little too good. I almost never lose. In twenty games I'll win 19 times. I'm not sure why I'm so good at it, but it's gotten to the point where me and some friends of mine play it every day. They are determined to beat me. I'm actually getting bored of the game because I do win so often. Unless you know the game, the pictures I post won't make any sense to you. I'm always the white pieces.

Utah!

I know I've been home from Utah for over a week now and I didn't write about my trip, but once again I've been busy with all sorts of stuff. I'll post the pictures I took, or others took while I was there, as I spent most of my time just hanging out with friends and seeing the ones I love. It was so nice to finally see the sunshine and the mountains again. I didn't want to leave.I'm excited to move back. Especially since things here in New York with my family have gotten so much better. Eveyone is getting along with everyone at the moment. I just pray it stays that way. I don't want to be here anymore, I'm ready to be on my own again. Nikki, Seth, Colton, Glenn, Matt, Doug, Kyle, Mike, Shawn, Jason, and Ashlie: I LOVE YOU GUYS AND I'M GLAD I GOT TO SPEND TIME WITH YOU ALL!! :]

the adventure begins!

mike opened the trunk to put food in it, and everything started falling out! haha.

we made a hello my name is sticker and stuck it on every gas pump we used on the drive to utah!

indiana jones hat!

i love you thissss much! haha.

cafe rio! pork barbeqoa [sp?] burrito!

dinner with glenn at sushi house!

ive missed this sky

and these mountains

like really, why did i ever leave?

dance party in a parking lot!

yes, yes i am grabbing colton's boob, and at his request!

rockin that guitar hero

writing pretty music

me and nikki at the timpanogos temple!

awkward smile...

cuddle fight!

yes, colton, you are hot.

he didnt like it very much

and this, is why you are my best friends. :]